Damn Dogs

Well today I went over to Cat’s house and borrowed her airsoft gun because everyday that I go jogging they start barking and it gets really annoying. I got tired of it so I shot them. One of the bb’s hit the dog and they shut up so hopefully that will get them to stop.

$60

Well I got $60 from my dad today because I told him I was going shopping down in Phoenix at the Abercrombie store which I didn’t. Well I bought a gig of ram for my laptop as it was much needed. Then I did buy a shirt from Abercrombie. It’s not white either! It’s navy. But yes so I now have $2.99 left which I am going to try to save for lunch Monday. Cat if you want to we can steal your car and go to Arby’s because Ashley might go with us.

Smoke

So I tried smoking that Damiana stuff and it seems to be working. I do feel high. I’m glad I can smoke it and get high because the tea and oil stuff didn’t. I smoked a lot of it too. But I am going to go do something so yeah. Yay for legal highs!

Oh joy

Well I’m back at home with my crazy mother. I told her I will try to be nicer to her but she makes it really really hard. So yeah I’m still not happy with her though. So we will see what happens. But all I know is that I need to keep going on with my life and go to college and be a better person than her.

Crazy mom

So I have been staying over at Cat’s house for the past two days because my mom went crazy. I went camping this weekend for 4/20. I didn’t smoke anything though. But my mom got mad at me because she thinks I stole a lot of food to take down there but so what if I did I do have to eat. All that I took was a pack of hot dogs, a bag of chips, and a bad of goldfish. So my mom kept calling all day today and she said she was going to burn down the house and so I called 911 and told them about it and then she gets mad at me. She shouldn’t have said anything to me if she didn’t want me to.

Thinking Cat should buy this

Cat you so should buy this for me! http://www.folica.com/Emjoi_EpiSlim_H_d365.html

Yes

You must

Friends

So I have come to realize that I only have 3 friends. That’s Cat, Bobbi, and Sierra. That’s all I have. Other than that I have no friends.

So yeah….

I am now at the point where I do want to kill myself. I haven’t really felt like I wanted to until now. I don’t care what my friends will think. I really want to do it. I can’t take living with her anymore. It’s either got to be her or me. I have tried to wait until she goes but she just keeps getting worse. I know she is still doing meth. I actually think that she is doing more. I don’t think she has done any today because other wise she would be nice. But yeah I really really really want to do it. I don’t want to live anymore. She said if she goes to jail that I have to live with my dad and I get nothing. So if I get nothing what is the point of living. I don’t want to live if I can’t go to college. I know I can’t get a scholarship and I won’t get a loan because I am not confident enough that I will get a job and be able to pay it off. Then if I don’t pay it off then I am in debt and if I don’t pay then I go to jail. So I don’t see any other way out.

Spray Tan

So yesterday I went with Bobbi to Cottonwood and I got a spray on tan. It was pretty cool and it worked really well. Guess what? I’m not orange either! So yeah I went naked so I’m tan all over. I couldn’t take a shower for 12 hours but I just got done taking one and a lot of the tan stuff came off but it is still soaked into my skin. I like them but I think I’ll stick to tanning beds or just normal tanning.